He could not tell if what he was seeing was real or if it was a 'hallucination'.
He has been having 'hallucinations' due to the medication.
(..) I have memories of mom, laughing. I can't even remember when that was. Mom had psychotic episodes. She had hallucinations. Of smashing our heads in with rocks. I heard them talking about it. Mom was sicker than any of us knew. (..)2016 Captain Fantastic